And You Are…

As records go, the time you leave your writing to stagnate for two solid months isn't really one to be proud of.

And yet it isn't a surprise, because life is busy and life is fast and when you have a child just finding the time to sit at a desk after having already sat at a desk all day and then given someone dinner and a bath and put them to bed and then eating yourself is just that much harder.

There are books to read and baths to take, and when Saturday comes life is all about stepping outside and going on little adventures, and not sitting inside, or on the porch, and typing away.

Life is about living your life.

So things have both stagnated and not stagnated.

In the world of stagnation is, sadly, my short film which was shot a year ago, but has not yet been edited.  So Previously Engaged (or Previous Engagement, the title has been written both ways) is still kinda-sorta out there.

The director moved to Hollywood, and keeps in touch, while our shot-in-Wisconsin movie remains in Wisconsin, and is being edited.  We think.

The Paper Castle - there are updates, and then the updates go away.  We hear good news, we hear people like the script, then we hear that they can't make it right now, or don't want to make it right now, or don't have the money to make it right now.

Money's a big one.

Stephen is once again trying to set it up, to make it on his own, and I'm looking at the script again, thinking about what needs to changed, or reversed, to bring it back to smaller and cheaper and yet still very good.

Because we've got to attract actors, y'know?

For one short moment, it appeared that Robot Hero, the very-short that I wrote a long while ago might yet see the light of day, but I couldn't say what happened to that.

And?

And and?

What have I been writing?

Not a lot.  I update the story of my child.  I continue to pour out words for Fox Valley Geeks.

Sometimes I have to put together a play or two for church.  I wrote one a couple of weeks ago, and I could feel the creaks and the cracks in my brain as I made up a little story - something it feels like I haven't done in forever.

I need... something.

There have been boosts, though.  One of my previous directors is thinking about making another short film - so I sent her my last short script.  The final one in my arsenal.

I've been sending out scripts.  Most of the places I used to scour for "Writers Wanted" or "Scripts Wanted" ads on the Internet are dead as dead can be these days.  Either no one is looking for scripts any more, or maybe they've all just realized that there aren't a lot of great screenwriters out there in the world, and they stopped looking.

Or maybe I'm looking in the wrong places.

I found out that a friend of mine, who teaches on a college level, has been using Meaningful Touches in her writing courses as an educational tool.  To my surprise, it's not a "what not to do" kind of thing.  She really likes the film and thinks it works great in an educational way.

But to wake up, and come up with new stories?

I need to fix up The Paper Castle again.

I need to get back to work on my little documentary about my daughter.

I need to finish writing my adoption book.

And I need a nap.

Like I said, I need... something.